Positive with Problems

It is only now that I posted at my blog. I had so many problems this past few days, and I was not in the mood to post. It is only now that I had the will and the chance to say what I want to.

First of all, summer class is over. I am not in Los Baños anymore to go to a nearby Internet Café where I can surf the net, which is one of my leisure activities. Now that I’m here in Magdalena, there’s the TV and I can watch all day long, not mentioning my PC where I can play offline games. I have also my books to read on. There’s so much to do. But the thing is, we have no Internet. I have to go to a computer shop to surf, and that’s so…inconvenient. So there, I had no time for surfing the net. Now, I managed to get online because dad brought the laptop and I can surf using Smart Broadband. I don’t want to surf in my PC because loading is too slow.

Secondly, I had to work on my thesis. Because of this, there came up with other problems. I had to prepare my proposal for my adviser to check for revisions. I also made the request letters for the zoos. I came back to LB to present it to her. And there were some things in the letter and questionnaire that needed to be changed. So I worked on it. I emailed the revised versions to her, and still she is not yet checking her email. I have to start gathering data as soon as possible, before the classes for 1st semester starts.

My third problem is about friendship. In my thesis, I have to go to three zoos, one in Manila, one in Malabon, and one in Rodriguez, Rizal. I have to give questionnaires to the visitors, as well as the zoo staff, so I can get information regarding the animal welfare management of zoos. I have to do that in three days, so I will not waste money for costly transport fare. It must be one zoo, one day. And I think I can’t do that all by myself. I need help. I need my friends. And there was only one person I thought of who will help me—the one who I consider my best friend. We don’t say to each other that we’re best friends, but I think we know to ourselves that we are. And then, I asked him to help me with my thesis. We will be in Manila for three days, and at night, we could stay at the house of our friend in Sta. Mesa, Manila. But he refused. I made all efforts to convince him but still, he did not want to go. He said that he couldn’t stay that long in Manila. I was so depressed that my only best friend refused to help me. This thesis is very important to me, and I was so sad that he couldn’t make a sacrifice for himself just to help me. I thought to myself that he still has many things to learn in life. Because of that, I forgive him. He is still not communicating with me, and so do I. I hope I can do this on my own. I can do this.

The fourth problem is about my sister. I thought to myself that I am being a bad brother to her. I am the one who should give way, because I am older that her. But no, I am treating her like she’s the same age as mine. We don’t think the same, and because I’m older, I should know the best thing to do for the situation not to get worse. However, it was not the case. I think she hated me for being an unforgiving brother. We are still not talking to each other. But I sensed signs that she wanted to make peace with me. One time she offered me chips. That was the first time she spoke to me for…5 days I think. But I refused her offer. I was so bad. I hope we’ll be better soon.

My fifth problem is just recent. It’s just a while ago, at dinner. It is about my dad. We were having dinner; he was drunk, when suddenly the topic was about my sister and me. He asked my why I was acting badly at her and we were always quarreling. Then I said that it’s a normal thing about siblings, just like in husbands and wives. He took it as an unserious answer, and he started to hate me again. I hope we will be better soon.

I have so many things to improve on to myself. Now I know that problems really do make us stronger individuals. They make you think what things you should work upon so that next time, you will do better and become an improved person. They make you know about yourself, as well as other people. Now I believe that problems really make life…fun and exciting.